-Can I kill myself yet?-

 God..today was pretty shitty..other than washing my car..I did nothing..went to go see a movie with a good friend, we went and saw Phone Booth, that was a pretty tight movie..wish I planned the day better..but I was a moron..the night ended early..I'm such a loser.

 I wish I could get my own apartment...and get away from my parents and their ridiculously stupid rules..I wish I had a girlfriend I could relate with and talk to, I wish I could just come home..to my home..and not worry about anything..I wish I can freaking gain weight so I can work out and beef up..but nooooooO!!!! I don't have a girlfriend, and at this rate I never will. I come home, my parents are home, I eat a lot..but don't gain weight..sigh...wtf.

 I hate focking school..but I know i gotta go or I won't get ahead in life, I don't mind working..if I could get mother focking Saturdays off so I can play some god damn paintball once in a freaking while..god damn..

I wish I wasn't shy....

Alright, I'm done venting..Im outtie

Jon

-Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain.-

 Well, I was going to get up at 8am this morning so I can have some extra time to try to set up my DSL on my comp at my mom's this morning..but..I was bad and woke up around 9:30 and I had to leave for work by 11:30. So I get up, ate, took shower, did some chores I have to do everyday, then finally I leave for my moms house around 10:45, get there around 11..find out that installation takes an hour..so I just printed up some tattoo ideas on paper..so I can show some friends of mine..

 Work was pretty busy. Then it got really slow becuase of the rain..so everyone went home early today. I'm gonna have 62 hours on my comming up pay check, I can't wait to get paid..since I'm broke right now..

 When I get paid I gotta pay some bills then from the money left over I'm gonna save up for the tattoo..I gotta go down to see how much it will cost around..I know its gonna be more than $150..

 Today my friend went and played some paintball..he works at the same place I do..and we both tried to get Sats off together since thats the only time paintball fields are open..but it doesn't look like we will anytime soon  Which sucks bad..we both have Fridays off!!! but that really doesn't help us..I guess we can practice on his field he has behind his house..

 So yeah..its still raining outside I think..I can't tell..its supposed to rain until tuesday..which means work should be pretty easy tommorow..hopefully.

 I'm watching the movie Red Planet on TV..its pretty good! Unfortunately I started watching it towards the end, so I saw the end first, now their replaying it so now I get to watch the beginning! LOL..I know whats gonna happen..that ruins everything HAHA..well im outtie here. Until next time...

Catch ya on the flip side,

 Jonathan

-Yes, I am still alive-

 Man its been forever since I posted last..well I got kinda busy..plus I really didn't feel like posting for awhile. Well all kinds of shit is going on or happened. I got my pb gear back from ICD, they gave me a newer body style, which is hella cool of them to do, plus I just got my new CP Flame drop forward with on/off. My gun works perfectly and I'm hella happy!

 Tournament comming up in May..can't wait for that. Gonna hopefully do some practices before the tourney, but its kinda hard with work and school.

 Um...what else......Oh yeah.. Im getting a tattoo!!! Its gonna be sweet. Its a oriental dragon..infront of a red circle background..it's pretty sick looking..I found it off some Traditional Chinese Medicine website, lol.I'm gonna do some more looking around for more ideas just to make sure I don't find anything better. Its about 4 inches from left to right and 3 inches tall, I'm probably gonna do it on my back left shoulder blade..Your probably asking.."what did your parents say?" Heres the whole thing:

My dad and my step mom don't mind considering my dad has one, and he understands I'm 18, also my older brother has a few, and they know how the whole tattoo thing is, and they loves their tats. Well..my mom and step dad on the other hand...

When I first said to my mom,

"Hey what would you guys say if I got a tattoo?"

She replied with, "No" LOL

So I kept asking her why she is saying no, and she didn't have a really good enough reason for me, the usual "There just fads" and "you'll regret getting it later" which isn't true at all. My brother has tats, he is 25 and he loves his. I told them its not like I'm gonna get it on my face or anything haha...so then they said wait 30 days before you make a decision..and i was like WTF!? Screw that..my dad is gonna talk to my mom..so hopefully they won't be gay about it, so hopefully I can do it really soon..like next week or something..but I dunno at this point.

 Here is the tat I'm considering getting, dunno what colors for sure yet..I like the red..but I dunno what color to do the dragon...

Or should I get this one? I like this one a little better..becuase of the detail and colors..but its gonna cost a lot more..but I rather pay more for something I really want:

Thats about it really..just going to school and working..and talking on my cell phone a lot with someone special... And stuff like that..life is pretty good right now.

-Zombiefied-

Omg, why am I still awake? It's 1:14am, listening to the punk band Hot Water Music. I can barely keep my eyes open, yet I am here writting in my blog. Well work yesterday was pretty easy since it rained and no one came out. I got a 78% on my psychology test yay! It's better than my last test. I'm gonna try to get in the habbit of studying more, but shit comes up so we will see what happens. There is nothing on freaking tv, just downloading songs to see if I want to buy the CD. Usually I'll just download all the songs and burn it, but I like to buy cd's too. Sometimes you'll download a song and its all f'ed up, repeating and all shitty like. I'd rather have a legit version than a f'ed up one...okay I'm rambing, lol.

-Friday-

On Friday my parents went outta town so I had the whole house to myself, I just chilled by myself, cause I'm a loner...sigh. I just watched tv and listened to the rain. exciting huh?

Also on Friday I checked my status of my paintball equipment and it reached ICD (Indian Creek Design) in Idaho! YAY! Hopefully they can work on my stuff and send it back so I can play and practice with my other teammates so we can tear it up at the tourney in a few months!

Well, I can't stand being awake any longer. Time to hit REM (deepest state of sleep, you dream in this stage) for all you people who haven't taken psychology. :P Laters!

C-ya on the Flip-side

Jon

Ugh, going to bed at 2am then having to get up at 7am sucks a lot. I resembled a zombie, I was so out of it. Had to go to my speech class, which was okay, nothing to write home about. Then I went home, had some breakfast, took a shower, and chilled out for an hour before I had to go to work.

Work was aight, pretty busy. Got home at a reasonable time. Had some diner than came online, played some sc and checked out some paintball stuff.

That was basically my day, nothing really exciting happened or anything significant. I wonder where my paintball package is at...hope it doesn't get lost in the mail, that would suck. Considering there's more than $400 in equipment, thats why I opted to insure it.

Well thats it...another exciting day....sigh. :P

C-ya on the flip-side!

Jon